My Heart Strings Come Undone

It's buried deep with in the past, I hope it doesn't last
It's something I already chase, I already chase
I try to give it all away, but it's never gonna fade
It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face
I know you feel it's all the same, But I promise that'll change
It's something I already chase, I already chase
You know I'm trying to believe that you're never gonna leave
It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face

There's nothing left! The fear is gone!

When my heartstrings come undone
I will wait for you, I will pray for you
Before I make my final run
I will stay with you, decay with you

I know I'm not the perfect one, This pain has just begun
It's something I already chase, I already chase
You bring me to a better path, It's everything I asked
It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face

There's nothing left! The fear is gone!
There's nothing left! The fear is gone!

And when my heartstrings come undone
I will wait for you, I will pray for you
Before I make my final run
I will stay with you, decay with you

If you fade out without me, you'll know all about me
If you fade out without me, you'll know all...

And when my heartstrings come undonea
I will wait for you, I will pray for you
Before I make my final run
I will stay with you, decay with you
And when my heartstrings come undone
I will wait for you, I will pray for you
Before I make my final run
I will stay with you, decay with you

Fire- Augustana

No it don't come easy
No it don't come fast
Lock me up inside your garden
Take me to the riverside

Fire burning me up
Desire taking me so much higher
And leaving me whole

There you were in your black dress
Moving slow to the sadness
I could watch you dance for hours
I could take you by my side

Fire turning me on
Desire taking me so much higher
And leaving me whole

Leaving and my love

just some effect.

after the beach.so i want to say that stephen, is amazing. I am so blessed. He rented bikes at

the beach and we rode around, sat under the pier and talked then went and got ice cream then

went swimming in the ocean. The best date ever. he continues to amaze me and I don't think i appreciate him enough, but he is the best. i'm going to be missing him tons. (along with everybody else)

no, we weren't doing anything. i thought it was a super cute picture.

So I'm getting ready to leave, and am trying to get pictures of me and stephen. but i really need to also get other pictures of everybody else

Love is...

"Love is of source unknown yet it grows ever deeper. The living may die of it, by its power the dead live again. Love is not love at its fullest if one who is living is unwilling to die for it, or if it cannot restore to life one who has died. And must love that comes in dream necessarily be unreal? For there is no lack of dream lovers in this world. Only for those whose love must be fulfilled on the pillow, and for whom affection deepens only after retirement from office, is it an entirely corporeal matter."

~~Tang Xianzu; The Peony Pavilion

something

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Here's a poem that is a work in progress:

giggles of happiness and laughter
happiness does become you
Two little eyes
eyes filled with wonder and joy
your smile, it lights the world
a precious gift to those around you

i sat and thought awhile
Discovering what's new
pondering the meaning of happiness
outward signs are clear enough
Two little hands
Touching everything in view
sparkling eyes and a beaming smile

All is Full of Love- Death Cab for Cutie

You'll be given love
You'll be taken care of
You'll be given love
You have to trust it,

Maybe not from the sources
you have poured yours
maybe not from the directions
you are staring at,

Twist your head around
it's all around you
all is full of love
all around you,

All is full of love
you just aint receiving
all is full of love
your phone is off the hook
all is full of love
your doors are all shut
all is full of love!

All is full of love
All is full of love
All is full of love
All is full of love
All is full of love

Me Pictures

random pictures of me.....don't think i'm vain, i don't usually like putting pictures up of myself. but these were fun glasses and weird faces

Evan's version of "Bad"

Here's the link to the video of Evan.
I couldn't upload it here for now, so click and watch it on youtube

www.youtube.com/watch?v=6AuOXqM3Zko

Dance time

i'm working on uploading a video of him dancing, but it's taking hours to upload

Haircut

after
during
during

before

4th of July

david, evan, freddie, me and leyland. fireworks down on river street.

Beach pictures

mewithoutYou concert pictures

classic evan face
aaron weiss (lead singer of mewithoutYou), evan, me and mer. really did not think I would actually meet this guy. wow..
car ride home...poor evan
i love the look of disgust on evan's face

aaron weiss and evan. evan actually had a 30 minute conversation with him
freddie...
evan...
something silly stephen wanted me to do on the car ride down to orlando
i was in pain, i'd gotten 4 shots the day before...they all laughed and made fun of me... :(
freddie...super tired
freddie
me, evan and stephen in the backseat, stephen was harrasing everybody
aaron weiss
once again, stephen bothering ppl who are trying to sleep.
aaron weiss
drummer for mewithoutYou..got crazy sweaty
pre concert picture
aww, trying to sleep
weird face
beautiul meredith, i loved this one.
didn't think i'd actually really put my finger up his nose?
x's on the back of our hands.

so pretty much, this has been and will be the most amazing concert i've ever been to.
mewithoutYou at The Social, Orlando Fl 6/10/09